Thursday, October 30, 2014

6 Things I Say The Most At Work

1. Good Morning
2. I'm ready to go home.
3. What time is it?
4. See you tomorrow.
5. I wish it were Friday already!
6. Have a great weekend!

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Random Ramblings

Having the dream you're  falling, and you hit the ground.

Your walking down stairs, and you miss the last step. 

When you stop walking, but your your high heels don't and there's nothing to hold on to.

When you look on your arm and a bug is the guest of honor on it.

When you cut your fruit to eat it and the hairy white stuff beat you to it.


Paper cuts that bleed, and bleed, and bleed, but don't immediately hurt.

Your favorite ice cream and the freezer burned it.

Candles, no matches

Wine, no corkscrew 

Fried rice, no soy sauce

Ring up your groceries, realized you left your money in your other purse. This actually happened to me a week ago. Lol

Ask the ATM for receipt, it's out of paper.

Reading a good book, finding printed mistakes.

Car in front of you is driving slow, and runs the yellow light, now you're stuck at the red light.  WTH?

Dented can goods.

Writing random shit.

My Top 10 Motivators

1. Keeping calm
2. Him
3. Lipstick
4. Dreaming
5. His voice
6. High standards
7. Good food
8. Art
9. Love Jones (the movie)

Thursday, October 23, 2014

10 Favorite Foods

You ever have those days when you have a taste for something, but nothing in particular tickles your fancy? Well I'm having one of those days right now. It's these days when I have to rely on something from my 10 favorite foods list. What are they? O.K. here they are:

10.Pho, or Vietnamese noodle soup
9. Cabbage
8. Baked Potatoes (russet or sweet)
7. Vegetable soup (minus the lima beans)
6. Green beans
5. Collards
4. Sushi
3. Turkey burgers
2. Bar B Que chicken
1. Fish - Salmon is my #1 favorite

I can usually pull a thing or two from this list and be very satisfied. For desert I will always have a York peppermint pattie. This is really my number one food! So what? Was I embarassed to put it on the list with all the healthier choices? Well yes as a matter of fact I was. LOL. But who can resist this? Not me.

Image from Wikipedia

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

What Do You See?

"Trust God. Not what you see. NEVER stop believing this, even if you have to remind yourself of this TRUTH 100 x's a day."

I saw this today from my sister in Christ/friend Rachel, and it immediately reminded me that I am exactly where I am suppose to be. Sometimes all it takes to overcome an obstacle is for someone or someting to remind you that you don't always have to jump every hurdle life throws at you at high speed; sometimes if at first you stand still, adjust yourself, listen for direction and gain clarity, you will see that you only need to walk around it. Leave the jumping for someone else.

I'm looking at things; images of people and the lives they live. Everything is not as it always seems. The mind can be cruel and deceptively malicious. The scary part is how much leeway I give those images and how often I allow them to hold captive my freedom and ability to be concise on living.

Today I'm telling myself "I'm trusting God and leaning not on my own understanding". That's it. All the conciseness needed.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

An entry from a Diva's Journal

Dear Journal:

Hope you're feeling well with all the thoughts I've bombarded you with over the past several months. Me? well I'm getting better every day.  Today was a good day.  I woke up with nervous energy, and you know me when I get that feeling I have to move something before something moves me.  I have to gain my balance before I fall. So I went running.  Yep. Running.  I intended on running two to three miles, but ended up running five.  I'm impressed with myself; that's a lot coming from a person who is not easily impressed with anyone or anything.

I realized some things while I was pounding the concrete today.  I realized the mind will not negate what the flesh is willing to do.  And the poor heart, it just sits there in the middle trying to evenly distribute crazy and sane and remain upright all at the same time. 

I also realized absence does not make my heart grow fonder.  Nope.  That shit doesn't work. Absence make my heart feel nonexistent, cold and unattended. I'm warm blooded, I have a relatively higher blood temperature than usual these days.  Maybe I'm shape shifting and taking on animal ways.
Either way  I have to convert my feelings into energy.  My heart can not be left alone.

I realized a lot of things during those 10,000 +/- steps today.  Most I will not share, but one last one I will.  It's o.k. to not have everything together all the time.  It's good that I understand and know who I am.  I am a woman who has, not a woman who needs.  

Tomorrow is not promised to me.  The rest of the evening is not promised to me.  So while I am in the land of the living, I promise myself this one thing, I will live, I will accept me for who I am, and I will not apologize for it. I will believe in me, I will accept the me that makes mistakes and I will learn from those mistakes.  I will be me, and no one will be better at it. I may be purring now, but just wait, you will hear me roar again.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

A Love Letter From A Diva's Journal

Love Letter No. 3
I Hope this letter from my journal finds you doing well, better than the last time we spoke. Me I'm o.k., actually a little bit more enlightened.

It's clear here today 68 degrees.  This is a beautiful day, I mean everything is beautiful.  Even the memories I'm conjuring from my psyche, are beautiful. There is one thing though I can't seem to remember, no matter how hard I try. Did I miss something along the way?  Was I so caught up in the idea of us  I couldn't or didn't see something that was possibly there all along?

I don't know.  Maybe there really are tests to pass to see how true and deep a love really runs. Maybe there are unforeseen trials and tribulations that lie dormant until they can't lie still anymore.  Maybe we just weren't prepared for the love which has consumed me.  One thing I am pleased about is I finally can say goodbye to the road we were traveling on.  I finally have peace about letting go.  I finally see the possibility of a more stabled us. I can't say I'm 100 percent excited or overjoyed about having to start over, however I am very optimistic.

I just wanted to drop a few lines to you.  I miss the old us, but I truly anticipate the new us.

Until later, and some other time, I'm going to close.  I wish you continued success on your journey. Godspeed.  I love you, and always keeping us alive.



Wednesday, October 1, 2014

A Love Letter From A Diva's Journal

Love Letter No.2
Hello my love.  It's night time here, the house is quiet.  I can hear myself think, and I'm trying with all my might to recall when I last heard you laugh. For the life of me, I can't remember. I miss your wicked laughter.  I miss our intense talks. I miss our evenings together. The H up effect. I miss our nights together. I miss our morning coffee and w....wait too much information to share. I can only say this is the time I miss you the most.

I dream with my eyes wide open now, for I can't stand the thought of missing an opportunity of envisioning us together one more time. In our place.  In my thoughts.  In my dreams. Keeping us alive.

How did we get here? when will we leave here my Love?

I want you to know that I'm wishing you a safe journey home. All my love, and all the best.


Forty Plus Things I've Learned In My Forties

1.       God is real
2.       You can actually move mountains with a calm voice
3.       You can be inspired by a two year old
4.       Wisdom does not only come from the elderly, it comes from the young as well
5.       Beautiful does not equate to better
6.       Rich does not always equate to money
7.       Your spirit will never mislead you
8.       Sugar really is bad for you
9.       There is a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone
10.   Exercise is important
11.   Disappointment hurts.  God heals. We do get better.
12.   What goes around really does come back around, and you will not escape it
13.   Laughter is good for the soul
14.   Pray.  Constantly keep communication open with the Father
15.   Time helps us heal
16.   Life is not short, it’s the longest thing we will ever have. Bet you can't name anything that you'll have that's        longer
17.   We are more resilient than we know
18.   Never abuse Love
19.   True Friends are jewels
20.   Love your parents, if you can’t do that, then at least respect them
21.   Your character is distinctive to you.  Remember that.
22.   Some fifth graders really are smarter than me
23.   20 percent of the people who say they like you, really don’t, but It’s OK
24.   We can tear down with our tongue, but we can build up as well
25.   Sometimes we get so full, that a good cry empties us to be refilled with hope
26.   People leave us, it’s OK. God always replaces what was never meant to be
27.   You’re never too old or  too young to learn
28.   The world really does have small and majestic wonders
29.   Pouring knowledge into children is rewarding
30.   Critical thinking is exhilarating
31.   The first can easily become the last
32.   Faith gets us through it all
33.   A smile is the most beautiful asset a person can have
34.   Rejection does not take away from who you are as a person
35.   Don’t sweat the small stuff
36.   Don’t cheat, it will bring us back around to No. 12
37.   Eat for the nourishment of your body, not for the nourishment of your mind
38.   Read.  Life is so much more fun when it’s imagined.
39.   A child’s brain really can soak up like a sponge
40.   Creativity comes in many forms
41.   Love will outweigh lust every time
42.   It’s OK to start over, again and again and again
43.   Cherish Life.  We only get one.
44.   Teach every chance you get, but make sure you reach as well
45.   Sit at the feet of your grandparents if you still have them.  You’ll miss them when they’re gone and the void        of them being gone will never be filled
46.   Show compassion
47.   There are consequences to being frivolous
48.   Create a legacy that brings honor to your family
49.   Believe in something, Believe in someone